The first day of my Life

I decided that it would be good to start by the beginning: the Day when I understood how God led my paths to finally found him. So, here it is, a piece of my journal showing how I felt on that day:

"Wednesday, 2nd September 2009
Ok, today is the first day of my Life! I'm so happy and so excited!!! So excited about my future. I'm not worried about it anymore. I know that no matter what will happen I will be fine, because I will never be alone again. I will not feel lonely, because Jesus God will be with me in every moment of my life."

I was sitting with my very good friend Tisha (she is kind of like my "spiritual guide") in a park in the center of Paris and talking. She opened my eyes to how God had been acting in my life for the past 2 years. How he was bringing me to this place at this time. It was quite a long journey but I now know why I am here.

I really love the way I felt that day. I am a person who is all about feelings. I don't want to think I want to feel things! There is only one problem: it can't be like this everyday. Like today for example. I'm not sad or unhappy but just not so excited about Him. I feel like that is bad and shouldn't be like that. I should always be excited about God, because He loves me and He is excited about all of the things He is going to bring to my life.

One of my other very good friends, Heidi, thinks that a relationship with God should be compared to marriage or to a bond between parents and children. No matter what you feel about your husband or your child today, it doesn't change the fact that they are still a permanent part of your life. God is a permanent part of my life now as well.

Actually, a good word to describe my mood today is "peace" maybe. Yes, I feel peace.

It reminds of one of my favorite verses John 16:33. I want to end with it:

"I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace."

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This is a blog about me as a new Believer, about my evolution, my growing up in Jesus, in my relationship with God and its impact on my daily life, my relationships with my Friends non-believers, my views on life and world.
I can't keep all my thoughts for myself and writing them in my journal is not enough either since I need answers to my questions. I was wondering if the steps I have been going by are the same for all new believers or just mine. In my entourage, I have only "mature" believers. They are great and help me a lot in understanding things, but they do not struggle with the same things that I do. So, I started to search on the internet if there was a blog or anything else about a person like me - a new follower of Christ - who wants to share his/her experiences. I didn't find any. I hope that by sharing my thoughts I will make other new believers feel like they are alone with these new feelings, questions and fears. So, even if there is only one person who after reading what I am living will say: "Gosh, I'm not the only one feeling like this is so hard. I'm not weird, others struggle like me." the blog will have done its job well.