The first day of my Life

I decided that it would be good to start by the beginning: the Day when I understood how God led my paths to finally found him. So, here it is, a piece of my journal showing how I felt on that day:

"Wednesday, 2nd September 2009
Ok, today is the first day of my Life! I'm so happy and so excited!!! So excited about my future. I'm not worried about it anymore. I know that no matter what will happen I will be fine, because I will never be alone again. I will not feel lonely, because Jesus God will be with me in every moment of my life."

I was sitting with my very good friend Tisha (she is kind of like my "spiritual guide") in a park in the center of Paris and talking. She opened my eyes to how God had been acting in my life for the past 2 years. How he was bringing me to this place at this time. It was quite a long journey but I now know why I am here.

I really love the way I felt that day. I am a person who is all about feelings. I don't want to think I want to feel things! There is only one problem: it can't be like this everyday. Like today for example. I'm not sad or unhappy but just not so excited about Him. I feel like that is bad and shouldn't be like that. I should always be excited about God, because He loves me and He is excited about all of the things He is going to bring to my life.

One of my other very good friends, Heidi, thinks that a relationship with God should be compared to marriage or to a bond between parents and children. No matter what you feel about your husband or your child today, it doesn't change the fact that they are still a permanent part of your life. God is a permanent part of my life now as well.

Actually, a good word to describe my mood today is "peace" maybe. Yes, I feel peace.

It reminds of one of my favorite verses John 16:33. I want to end with it:

"I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace."